Locker rooms are always filled the smell of soap and shampoo, clean towels and conversation. Changing clothes before and after working out offers an opportunity for people to catch up with others on their daily lives. One night after dance class, a political discourse ensued. Michelle angrily offered her opinion that George Bush is an idiot and should be taken out of office. She stipulated that our county is a mess and continued on like that for several minutes. Over the years, I have heard these same lines regurgitated in varying forms in the media, from friends and from people in the streets. Once again, I found myself perplexed by the entire dialogue.
We are all, every one of us, on this planet to manifest our destiny; to remember who we are and to fulfill our Higher Self’s dreams. In doing so, we raise the consciousness of our world community. That said, I find it interesting that so many people on the planet are so angry at George Bush. People literally hate this man. I believe that from the standpoint that we are a soul living in physical form with a higher objective than what may be visible to the human being’s consciousness, I argue that it was Bush’s destiny to create everything that he created in order to spark debate and bring a critical mass towards a pro-peace movement. If that is the case, he did his job beautifully.
How do you know what you want, if you don’t know what you don’t want? How do you know that you like sunshine, if you don’t experience a cloudy day? How do you know you like a relaxing day at the spa if you don’t experience the stress of being at work? How do you know a rose beautifully adorns your garden, if you don’t experience weeds there, as well? How do you know that peace is the way if you don’t experience war?
Arguably, there are hundreds of thousands, if not millions of people protesting this current war. A few years ago, the general population, especially Americans, took it for granted that peace is the way. Peace IS the way. Now the multitudes march in the streets, post opinions on websites and debate the sentiments of peace on TV and in written media. They now know what they want, because they have experienced what they don’t want. Recently, I overheard a conversation where the man said, “I don't know what this war is about.” What came to my mind immediately was, “It's about bringing awareness to people like you to promote peace and thereby raising the consciousness of our planet.” In that way, I thank George Bush for helping us to see the Light.
This idea is not just about global subjects, but personal ones, as well. How do we know what we want, if we don’t know what we don’t want?
As so many children have experienced abuse in their lives, I am no exception. From the time I was 3 until the time I was 21 I had 11 different incidents where I was either molested or the attempt was made. Most often I was able to fight the person du jour off, but not always. I was attracting these kinds of men, because they were mirroring how I felt about myself. I had low self-esteem and deep feelings of unworthiness. At 21, I enrolled in a self-defense class and two things happened, my self esteem sky rocketed and I no longer attracted these people in my life. I now project the emotional and physical strength and confidence that are rightfully mine.
That said, however, I buried all of my experiences inside, never sharing them with anyone until I was in my late 30’s. In recent weeks, I finally at age of 42, made the decision to fully disclose what had happened to me to my family. There are those in my family who choose to not believe me. That is fine. That is where they are in life. I have been there myself and I accept it, send them blessings and am moving on. To quote Nick Nolte’s character in The Prince of Tides, “The silence is worse than the rapes.” The silence IS worse! My full disclosure has allowed me to move on and heal myself; thereby adding more healing to the collective unconscious.
To quote Katie Weatherup:
“Many of my clients have experienced sexual trauma as children. My guides show me how these patterns go back generation after generation, as the victim becomes the perpetrator. What they show me is that this energy of sexual abuse has been part of the way the people have explored the nature of power, taking turns being the one to misuse it and being the victim of its misuses. At this time, many old souls have taken on the experience of this trauma, not because they need to understand not to misuse sexuality, but in order to free the world from sexual abuses. Every time someone heals from sexual trauma, it becomes easier for others with similar trauma to heal. This healing is contributing to a universal consciousness and collective knowledge of how to release and heal sexual trauma so that it can stop being part of our world.”
These words bring to mind that I wouldn’t know what I wanted, a happy healthy fulfilling life where I am here to help raise the consciousness of myself and the planet at large, if I hadn’t experienced the sexual misconduct in my life leading me down a path of darkness; where I had little self-esteem and all my thoughts and desires remained buried for no one to see including myself. In that way, these people became my teachers and I have learned to forgive, at least on some level, a spiritual level, knowing they were helping me raise my vibrational level.
When there is something in your life that you do not like, take a look at it. Analyze it. Honor it and know that it is a tool, teaching you what it is you DO want.
Thank you for reading and Namaste (The Light in me recognizes the Light in you!)
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