THE CHRYSALIS

I feel that my life is exploding around me. As a Spiritual person, I know that chaos simply means that life is falling apart so that I can be ripped open into a new and better version of myself. Inside the chrysalis there may be a lot of rocking and rolling going on until it
eventually shatters, but a beautiful butterfly will undoubtedly emerge. I know this to be true and that is all well and good, but it’s still hard.

So, yesterday I tried to sit with the pain. My Inner Guidance told me to do so and who am I to argue with The Universe? I had nothing better to do so I was game. I closed my eyes. I took a few deep breaths and began going within. Being present and conscious with pain was certainly a different experience. I felt both my cheeks being “rubbed” by The Universe. It was so subtle that I wouldn’t have noticed if I weren’t paying attention. Why my cheeks? Maybe it was to support the energy of the tears. With each one I shed, I released a piece of the old garbage that is no longer serving me in order to make way for the good and juicy stuff to manifest itself.

I allowed myself to feel every tear glide down my face and onto my neck. My gut reaction was to wipe them away. They tickled and itched as they traversed through the landscape of my body. For the most part I sat in total awareness—that is until the crocodile tear showed up. As I sat with my eyes closed, I gave myself permission to wipe it away. I may not have sat perfectly still in that moment, but I was still in trance state. So, instead of beating myself up for doing it "wrong" I congratulated myself for doing it my way. The tickling was gone and I continued with my meditation.

I next noticed that my feet were vibrating with energetic charges. I took this as a sign that it was now time to ground my body. Mother Earth was calling me and I heeded to her wisdom and Love. That meant that my old tried and true grounding meditation came out to play. I visualized the roots of a vibrant tree connected to the bottom of my feet. In my mind’s eye, I allowed the roots to burrow their way into the womb of the Earth. With every inch of this connection, I became increasingly aware of this body of mine. As I did so the tears began to wane. Ahh, relief was on its way! I felt the Divine Feminine Energy soar through me and my monkey mind began to relax—and that certainly was a good thing.

I am still in the chrysalis. I am still in pain. I have more work to do. However, the good news is that I am not criticizing myself for being here. It just IS what it IS and I AM who I AM—in this moment and in every moment.

Thank you for reading and Namaste! (The Light in me recognizes the Light in you!)

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